The Field Beyond
By Kimberly Phinney
Do you ever feel alone, just plain alone? I mean, you’re in a room buzzing with people… chit-chat and broad, toothy smiles abound… but YOU are alone. A terrible shrinking feeling overwhelms you, like a magnet is sucking you out of your space in the room. People are everywhere, but every exchange is distant. Every look is empty, and every shoulder brush is senseless.
Yet you ache to be known…
Sounds all too familiar, right? Sounds too close for comfort? It’s because I know you. I know it all too well because I am you. When you were in the room feeling empty and wrecked, I was there too. We may have even brushed shoulders a time or two.
Feeling alone is the most detestable, nagging feeling known to a realized man (or woman)… It’s also the most common. Since the dawn of recorded thought, we’ve seen artists, writers, and even the minds of scientists struggle with the introspection called loneliness.
And what a beast loneliness is. It’s often at the root of several other animals: depression, anger, anxiety, insomnia, low self-esteem, addictions…
To be lonely is to be human. But to be at peace we must find ways to face our fears of insignificance. Because at the root of loneliness is the fear of being insignificant. To look life in the face, to stare our very existence down is an insurmountable task. Who am I? Why am I here? Where am I going? What does it all mean?
We long to know the answers.
So we obsess, and we ache.
It’s as if having these answers would rid us of our insignificance and numb the wounds our loneliness has inflicted on our psyche and spirits.
(If you’re still reading this because you hope I may provide an answer or two, then I’m afraid I may be of disappointment to you. But I do have a message I pray you’ll receive.)
Beyond the questions, beyond the fears of insignificance, beyond the deep pools of loneliness… there is a field. And in that field is a panacea, a absolute healing power. In that field is every other soul who has gone before you. And cradling that field are the hands of God.
By your very existence you have defeated insignificance. In your very footprint, there are layers upon layers of other men and women walking the same human experience as you. And God, the creator of all things living and beautiful, is at the beginning and end of this human journey.
You were never alone.
You are not alone now.
You will never be alone.
God set you on your path. He’ll be there when you return. And in the middle of it all, when he feels too far behind or too far ahead, picture the field beyond all the questions and fears. Feel all the other souls around you who are just like you. Take heart in that. Find peace in that.
And feel the hands of God cradling us all as you envision the vibrant green expanse. Because we are significant, united, and dearly loved.
We are never alone.
I’ll meet you in that field.
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